SIT DOWN.
sudden sense of lost.i miss the one who wld listen to me grumble.
montessori seems so attractive.
yet im not sure if im prepared to earn soooo much lesser then everyone.
doesnt tht show how much i do not truly love kids with all my heart.
since like the materialistic side is still overwhelming me.
yet on the other hand, i juz feel like accepting the damn job since for god knows wad reason i hav been wishing tht i will get since like 2 weeks ago.
its juz tht.
im startin to wonder if this is the path i wd really wanna follow when im older.
cause if it isnt wldnt i hav been wasting time pursuing sth i THOUGHT i wanted in life.
as in. all mr tong said bout beginning with the end in mind is making me feel like i hav no goals no aims n no aspirations.
coz all i envision myself to b in the future is a housewife.
totally.
HOUSEWIFE.
like. ya i know. stop laughing.
yet. i still dream of jet setting away n joining sum womens organisation tht will leave me EVEN MORE PENNILESS.
its kinda like. how everything tht appeals so greatly to me is so. well. economical. its like all jobs i hav interests in are so. less-paid. i wonder. how i wld eva cope with abandoning the lifestyle im living now, if i really were to abandon all economical constraints n pursue those dreams of mine in the future.
but then again.
i hate to think too much.
mayb thts y i can neva eva acheive anything astronomically amazing.
